Sunday, September 28, 2008

"And I'm not happy and I'm not sad."


I am tired of this reality. Someday soon maybe nature will steal us back, reclaim us, swallow us into the same primordial ooze from which we first emerged. Imagine the impending battles on 6 or 7 fronts stopped dead by the force of the waves closing over our pitiful human drama once and for all.
The hurricanes are winning. The sound of the surf is sweet. Sing along, sing along.

9 comments:

changapeluda said...

i'm glad no one's here
just me by the sea
i'm glad no one's here
to mess it up for me
i'm glad no one's here
just me by the sea
but man i wished i had a hand to hold.

edie brickell


i dunno why i thought of that just now...we're fine over here. not going by my brother's word cuz hello! he's a lying sack of shit.

La Sirena said...

I like the Edie Brickell song, too. It reminds me of being on Highway 1 in Cali. The title to this post, however, is from a Smiths' song called This Night Has Opened My Eyes.

I'm glad you guys are fine. Oh, brother!

Zoro said...

"Killing me softly" springs instantly - Plus "mother Mary comes to me." Earth mother, mother of god, killing us softly thank you mother for being gentle and letting us down slow - I couldn't face being jilted too brusquely by yet another planet... Earth lies way way beyond epithets like "mother" and "goddess" and much much closer too. It's US - we are our planet and we are well plugged into self harm on all levels.

Z

La Sirena said...

I couldn't face being jilted too brusquely by yet another planet...

hahahahahahahah! That's perfect Zoro!

It is us... we deserve it. I am feeling very resigned at the moment. I'm hoping to snap out of it any second now. Mean while it's been raining cats & dogs all day. The lake will take us first... Maybe the Lady of the Lake, then?

aiyiyi, I'm weirder than usual today.

Zoro said...

Is it blame though LS? Mummy does not blame me...mummy made me do it. She hurts me but who can I blame? I'll blame daddy and daddy will hurt me for hurting mummy.

This is purely a stream of consciousness, before someone calls Childline, me I need to understand why we self harm, i.e., harm our home/planet it helps me to find solutions to living.

Z

Zoro said...

Take care of the dogs, and yes, even the cats if you must.

Z

La Sirena said...

Is it blame? I don't know. I certainly wouldn't blame the earth for swallowing us - we're lucky we've had such a good run... in fact, I think it would be a blessing.

Do I blame my feloow humans who seem hellbent on death and destruction?

Yes, I do -- a whole hell of a lot.

Do I blame myself, too? Yes, sometimes... sometimes, no.

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La Sirena said...

In spite of it all ... I'm truly not a nihilist. I desperately want us to learn to be kind, good tenants. But somedays that seems impossible. And then I wonder if it wouldn't be more merciful (and our just desserts) if the earth just took us all back and we were forced to re-evolve.

Ain't no rapture for this Siren, honey. Just an eternal saltwater bath and reincarnation of consciousness... maybe as a school of fish or a garden of anemone....

See, I love this planet and every time I smell the damp, black soil or a breeze off the water or watch a splinter of the moon rise or get caught in the rain -- I know the planet loves me back.

So I hope and I fear. I'm just a puny human, after all. And I'm not happy and I'm not sad.